There was a train off in the distance
When I decided to stay
I'm not sure what I was thinking
Its never the same when you're away
Oh I hope you had your fun with her
You'll never stop paying for this
I told you I was fine and it was a lie
I was just too numb to feel anything
I can't find the words, I'm so sick
There's no way you could understand
I came this close to walking away
You only know how much you deserve that
Why can't I let go?
Why can't this just fall apart?