kind of neat

So I found a way to pass the time. I got a bass and an old shwinn to fix up.

I think I'm either going to teach myself or have nate's roomate teach me and have John help me fix up the bike. Its a piece of work, but when its donw it will look so beautiful.

This should keep me busy for a while.

i'm not a ladies man, i'm a landmine
filming my own fake death
under an '88 cavalier i go
but-but-but-but nothing but the rear bumper's blown
but i's born for this flight, united 955 on the fifth of july
back the s over y
i join the dark side
in a thin disguise
on consumer grade video at night
faking suicide for applause
in the food courts of malls
and cursing racing horses on tiered steps
playing the wall at singles bingo
all time gringo did anyone hear me cry there
through a toilet stall divider
i swear i care, raw

i am an example of a calculated birth
two a star chart for clowns, im not
under robin eggs in a nest, you hit a manila
envelope with one last little robin's egg in it

a hollow bullet yet spentsubject to dismissal
i wish all my pitfalls
could be called my miscalls

cherie-a cherie-e cherie-i cherie-o cherie-u

my home.

Josh and I went shopping at an antique mall a few days ago. It really makes me want to own my own house so that I can decorate it myself and fill it up with my own frames, curtains, and furniture.

omg

I'm in my bed for the first time this week. So warm.

lessons learned

I have a lot less "friends" than I thought, but more than enough to keep me happy.


Today I learned a very valueable lesson. Transitioning into being beauty school seniors is the time when we all start to get knit-picky and dramatic. If one person serves to be a negative energy source other girls just feed off of it. With that being said today we had our usual wednesday morning meeting and all the girls in the room said enough hurtful things about our instructor to make even the careless of people upset. Needless to say she came in the room crying. I tried to cheer her up and listened to what she was saying, did exactly as I was told, and just tried to make her happy. Other girls were just quite simply doing the opposite. It really made me see how many people act up for attention and how many people buy into that and start to follow it. It blows my mind how you really are never "out of highschool."

fire and ice

I'm not sure if its all the ice that's been throwing my equalibrium off or what, but I've been falling everywhere I go. I've never considered myself clumsy, ever. Even when I was a ballerina I was one of the more poised girls. My body is so bruised I look mildly abused. Hopefully I don't endarger my life by my new found handicap of no balance.

Today as I was driving to the dentist I found myself fishtailing and sliding all over the place. For some reason it didn't seem to bother me at all. Nor did it bother anyone else. I just couldn't believe how contained I was. I could feel the emotionlessness on my face and sort of wished I could hide my emotions the rest of the time that well.

On a darker note, my wisdom teeth are going to have to be taken out like asap. Apparently there effecting the rest of my teeth and causing me to shift. Not siked, buhh.

beauty school in a nut shell

life can't be much more perfect.